Down-low brothers can be one of the most confusing species on Earth. You can observe us in the wild for months and think you have our mating and hunting patterns down pat. But we’re tricky animals.
Example: Last night I texted “Austin” online and asked him what is up. Like me Austin is married but decided to make the break to living a fullly gay lifestyle. So he left his wife and three kids a few months ago, got an apartment, and is trying to keep two households going. In these days of economic turmoil that’s a tall order.
Austin has criticized me for not being true to himself and following his lead. I hate to admit it but he is right. And now I’m taking a big leap of faith and making solid plans to launch the next half of my life somewhere on the other side of the rainbow.
But remember, down-low men are unpredictable and Austin is no exception.
“I’m thinking about going back home,” Austin writes. His children, particularly one son, miss him terribly. Austin says after he finishes a big, upcoming business project he will make a decision.
After reading his message all I can think is: “What-the-fuck?!?”
Austin is gay. I mean, real gay. I heard he once hosted a football party at his house for the guys and came downstairs in booty shorts. Yeah, you heard me. Booty shorts. Austin has juggled more dick than his wife will ever get.
Austin is a very complicated member of the down-low species. Intelligent, creative, resourceful, enthusiastic but mixed up, confusing, catty and frustrating. But hey, don’t we all have issues? And the decision to stay or not stay in a marriage or relationship with a female is highly personal. What works for one man will not work for another.
So who am I to judge?